Essentially I want to be as open as possible about my journey as a student.
In much of my professional life I am in the role of ‘expert’. This needs balancing with novice, so here I am. This unit is both what I want and what I need.
So the journey so far…
I have been struggling with my feelings of inadequacy, confusion, and frustration as I work to get a handle on the EDU8117’s content. I hadn’t realised how invested my self-identity was with being ‘clever and competent’ until I wasn’t. I also hadn’t realised the extent of my expertise in my field until I came across to education and many of the terms and background knowledge are different. I hadn’t realised the extent to which I would ‘nod my head’ in my field when a term, model, author, or piece of research was mentioned until I come to a field where that wealth of knowledge is absent. The ‘expert’ in me is afraid to reveal this ignorance and suffer a blow to the ‘brand’, but that’s just ego. If I truly want to be ‘good at what I do’, ‘help others’ and grow then I need to be as authentic and willing to risk as possible. I need to be real! Wish me luck.